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Thursday, December 24, 2009
All I want for Christmas is .... an exercise bike !!!!
Yeah i'm weird. But I could be sitting on that bike right now burning off calories. I'm not a huge fan of xmas at all. Thankfully no family things to go to on the day. I still really want said bike though. Might use xmas monies to buy one.
What's everyone else after for Christmas ? (i'd also like 5kg magically gone overnight, cmon Santa give me my wish hahaha)
I think i'm a bit manic tonight ... wish I could go for a run :)
Current mood:  hyper
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Take to exercising!
Maybe I feel a little guilty about staying up until midnight doing workouts, but is it any better than gaining a pound a day?
For those of you who have felt your butt get all flat and flabby [I know I have!] I found this amazing workout! It's only 6 minutes long!! Actually, you should do it even if you're NOT worried about your butt. You can feel the calories just MELT with it. And yes, it's only 6 minutes long.
buns of steel!
Tomorrow, on top of green tea fasting, I plan on doing this at least 6 times.
so,tomorrow is the day i get my PMR results.
PMR is the exam all 15 year olds in my country go through.
AND I AM NERVOUS!!!!!
i hope i do well :D
the best results would be 8A's.
aaaand.i am promised a new phone and a new handbag from my parents if i get 8A's!
WHEE-HEEE-HEE!!!!
The first plate was excusable.
But then I went for the second
then the third.
I hate that when I taste one thing, I start eating blindly.
And I eat more than I would when I was "normal".
Well, I've been trying to work it all off.
Unfortunently, my Dad and brother are obsessed with the TV and wouldn't let me finish my Wii Fit exercises.
Took both dogs on seperate walks.
Plan on finishing my Wii Fit and doing 3 workout videos.
I'll be up all night.
On another bright note, I bought two 2liter things of Japanese drinks.
Green tea and a real healthy sports drink.
And green tea bags.
I'm starting on my green tea diet soon!
Along with my diet pills.
Should help me lose this crisis weight.
Strength is staying away from hint of lime Tostitos and salty salsa.
Strength is staying skinny.
Strength is beautiful.
I love all of you girls, and I hope your day goes wonderfully today!
Hi everyone I'm missing you so much. My patens have taken my internet until January ecause they found me in this site and losing too much weight! I miss and loceyou all..,stay strong message me and I'll try to reply... It's so hard to be away
I love you
stay strong..... Cannot wait til jan!
Current mood:  lonely Current music: Roslyn
11:30AM
Tea, Tea, Tea <3
Im pretty tired; for the past week and a half; ive woke up at exactly 10.39am every day - how is that even possible without an alarm?!?
Xmas is gonna suck i think; my mums just sed 'tell me when you want something to eat then ill make something for both of us n we can eat it together',
Basically
*i eat - i feel like a fat whore
*i dont eat - my mum wont eat and ill feel awful =/
I hate guilt trips like that; i know it isnt concious as she knows nothing of my ED but still its annoying =/
<3 3rd January - bring it on!
9:13PM
FYI -
A binge constitutes eating more than the amount of calories a person should eat in an entire day in a one - three hour sitting.
Not OMG I just had the biggest binge on three cookies and a piece of toast!
5:32AM
Hi all again.
So I was doing well on my liqui-diet. It's worth a second try in my book.
So I was doing well. Until I got dizzy and passed out..I woke up 7 hours later And then I had a binge session: three muffins and a kielbasa grinder..Had to have been 800 cals all together of course I purged in the shower. I got depressed because I felt that I failed the diet.
So I took a bunch of my sleep meds and have been dead to the world for the passed day.
Oh btw.
Hi Amanda its me Jesse =]
Current mood:  blah
ok so hey my name is mike, im new to this community, heres my run down
Name:mike
Height: 6'7"
CW:198lbs
LW:154lbs
HW:256lbs
GW:154-160lbs
i have had a past full of diffucult things, everyone treated me better when i was thin, and now that im at my current weight i feel passed by, and that im just another person, i want to be happy again like when i was 154lbs. its gonna be a trying time, but im gonna get through it. if you want to talk, message me, im a down to earth person. head on my shoulders, friendly funny and such. hey im just trying to make me happy, is that so bad?
later -mike
made it through day 4 of the lemonade master cleanse. yesterday i didn't think i would but once today came around it didn't seem as hard. one more full day if i can then xmas eve.
f-2/2
w-2/2
e-2/2 ballet class and a show
p-2/2
c-2/2 catch up on everything
4,10 since last month, 40
take care all :)
Current mood:  optimistic
food: 1/2
water: 2/2
exercise: 2/2 (30 mins stationary bike)
post: 2/2
challenge: 2/2
total: 9/10
numbers: 19/5/177
today was ok. my cousin was over which was nice. almost forgot to post cause she's spending the night. was 129 when i checked this morning which made me feel awesome. of course i wish i was less but at least i'm maintaining during the holidays. not a lot to say. hope today was good for all, xx
Thursday, December 24, 2009
8:44AM
Haloa, yesterday was a disaster, I'm hoping my "healthy" diet goes better today. btw: I'm just doing this "healthy" bullshit till New year, it's mainly because people would notice if I didn't eat, so I thought it would be better if i ate around others to stop them from suspecting. And on top of everything, its Xmas time: I don;t want to be depressive and just have fun on xmas. However the side effect being: I feel shit about eating afterwards. But I keep thinking: No worries 2010 will be my year to be thin! So if I try to be healthy now, its not so bad. :)
Anyway kisses to u girls. Hope your well.
Luv, Lola
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
today was a food fail. binged four times, only purged twice. no doubt, i'm 163 again. bleh, i need to get control of myself. i feel so gross, i wish i could hold on to this feeling. i would never eat again feeling like this.
tomorrow i'm going to try and fast, but i think my mom will make me eat dinner. but maybe i can weasel out of it. then christmas eve is going to be insane food wise, same with christmas. but the 26th i'm going to attempt to start a multi-day liquid fast. try and finish the year decently. and then on the first i'm going to begin the ABC diet.
and this is really random, but does anyone else feel like after a binge or something they don't like to look at thinspo because they feel ashamed, or not good enough to? i feel like it should be the OPPOSITE, and i should want to because it'll make me not want to binge anymore, but i just can't. i feel like i've failed too much to even bother. :/
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Well I thought I would make a post to introduce myself. I've been lurking for a while around different groups on LJ but this one seems quite active so yay.
Well I am 24 years old and have had disordered eating since I'm not sure when. I have times of my life when it is worse and times when I could almost pass as 'recovered'. It is a never ending cycle for me it seems and I'm sure everyone can relate to that. It just goes around and around and my weight bounces up and down. I usually get down to my lowest weight (below) then bounce up and down for a while. It never seems to stay, hence my lj name.
I am 171cm tall, about 5'7.
LW: 45KG - 99Lbs (BMI 15.4)
HW: 67KG - 147.4Lbs (BMI 22.9)
CW: 58KG - 127.6Lbs (BMI 19.8)
GW1: 54KG
GW2: 50KG
GW3: 46KG
UGW: Thin. XD Lol. But this is a joke, as whatever weight I am I still seem to be fat.
So yeah my weight is quite appalling atm, as I fell pregnant a few months ago (I lost the baby though) and after that happened I haven't been able to stand to look in a mirror or step on scales, and have just been eating whenever and whatever I want :(. But now I want to get back to what I was before. I also lost my job at that time and it has sent me into a bit of a depression and I haven't been as active as I once was but I am hoping to get my motivation back!!!
I live in Australia, hence my use of kilos instead of pounds. It's very hot here and I hate it.
So I hope I can find some friends here to share experiences with and whatnot. Thanks for reading :) Who else is dreading Christmas!! My family always has a big lunch thing but I'm hoping I can get away with my usual excuse of 'I went out for breakfast' haha.
Current mood:  hot
I'm reading that lots of you gals use lax to purge ater a binge, or a regular amount of food.
You guys should know that when you take lax, yeah you shit a lot, but your body digests the calories and nutrients from it beforeit goes through
And abusing lax really screws with your body (you might not even be able to crap without them) for nothing.
Yeah, you get a bm. But the cals are still there
I know this shit we do to ourselves is fucked up and unhealthy, but lax is something that will really screw you up for nothing..
1:02AM
330 on a 300 day.. not bad, since 40 of it was green tea anyways. I definitely feel thinner today even though the numbers haven't moved, but this feeling means much more to me than the scale anyway. And as long as my stomach's grumbling I know I can make it :)
Tomorrow/today getting up super early (hopefully) to do productive things! And then I'm on Winter break:DDD I hope all you lovelies are doing as well, feel free to come by & tell me about your day (even if it wasn't the best)
Love you ALL
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
I haven't been on here in a while so here's my update:
I'm doing okay. I'm eating healthy and I don't feel too fat but that may just be the food talking :/
I'm trying to get back into my ana/mia ways. I started 2 days ago but I ate a sandwich today. I also had a glass of milk and a piece of chocolate cause I was planning on purging. I'm going to try again tomorrow.
Anyways I heard that aspirin and ephedra have the same effects as speed. Is that true? If so I have aspirin and ephedrine... is that the same?
Food: 2/2
Water: 2/2
Exercise: 2/2
Post: 2/2
Self-Esteem: 2/2
18/7?/158
Brilliant day today, just hope I keep it up :)
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